What makes you sad today?

What makes me sad is the realisation that I'll probably never live my life exactly as I picture in my dreams, with the friend circle and partner I've always wanted. It may come close, but it'll probably be way off, I dunno. I'm gonna hit 24 soon and I'm kinda tired of waiting.

Trueshot said:

What makes me sad is the realisation that I'll probably never live my life exactly as I picture in my dreams, with the friend circle and partner I've always wanted. It may come close, but it'll probably be way off, I dunno. I'm gonna hit 24 soon and I'm kinda tired of waiting.

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Hi Trueshot don't try to live your life as you see it in your dreams. Life is not a dream! Try - no not try but do with your life something reasonable. Don't set so high expectations to find your friend's circle or your partner. Life is no film - it is real and your friends and perhaps your partner will not be like an actor. Perhaps they or he may have flaws (like yourself!!!) but love him or your friends as they are and they or he will love you back.

You say you are soon 24 (by the way I'm 30) and if you will have until now no boyfriend or partner don't be tired of waiting. Go out and take over the opportunity to find one - and you will see it will be not an actor or a special model but a real normal guy who will like you and perhaps soon will love you. pppp

Shelter you speak with much wisdom for one so young.

stonecold said:

Shelter you speak with much wisdom for one so young.

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:blushing::blushing::blushing:Wow, Stonecold - thank you. I'm honoured! But that is something I'll feel. :blushing::blushing::blushing:

Migrane seizure

Such fun to go blind all of a sudden.

W!nston said:

That’s awful ihno. I wish you better health and no more episodes like that. No matter our differences I do feel a connection with you and care about you.

:big hug:

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:agree::agree::agree::agree::agree:

ihno said:

Migrane seizure

Such fun to go blind all of a sudden.

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Ouch - No fun! I hope things get better... makes my annoyance over not being able to access my e.mails this morning seem trivial

Thanks. As long as I don't forget my meds (which I never do) the seizure is pain-free. I've made a reconstruction how the peak of an aura looks like if I'd look at the faces. And I didn't exxagerate much.

That's a good representation of the aftermath of a really excessive popper session, it must be a similar kind of blood pressure roller coaster. Only mine is for fun, yours is anything but fun.

dargelos said:

That's a good representation of the aftermath of a really excessive popper session, it must be a similar kind of blood pressure roller coaster. Only mine is for fun, yours is anything but fun.

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Thanks. It's not easy to "paint", since you can't look at it. It's all in the background so you can't adore it like those fancy gothic windows you have with LDS. It should be a gif too, since it has kaleidokospian movements.

I have never heard of any substance that gives you blind spots in your center of perception. I only know psychedelic stuff from my wild youth and they're quite different. If poppers looks like a migrane aura it might have found it disturbing. Blood pressure is involved I guess, at the start you feel a bit like Elastoman, your arms feel very, very long. But my migrane is more of a culmulated muscle-tension from a scoliosis that just unloads in your brain.

For those who don't know those distortions follow a rather strict pattern that is shared by people (nothing individual about it) and it takes 40-42 minutes. It startes with a millisecond delay in your perception, which you would dismiss without experience till it fills your field of vision after 20 minutes.

Years ago I also had the "pac man" you usually see when you google "migrane aura" but not so much any more. I still have the smiling mouth.

Then it shrinks again till you field is clear again. Only then the pain starts for around 8 hours - or would start if I didn't have my meds - a rheumy relaxant.

Only my memory doesn't work any more which is strange if you can't remember the surname of your fave composer. So I do things slowly. I'm fortunate that I had the luck to find one doctor an one practicioner that created a therapy for me. Most doctors are not educated enough to offer the universal perspective that is necessary to deal with such a condition.

You are are lucky at least to find a doctor prepared to spend the time working with you. Many are too overworked to concentrate on particular cases.
Music seems to reside in a place of it's own in the brain in that you can forget a piece exsists yet just a few notes are enough to bring the other hours worth back, but not names or titles.

I had a bad morning. I woke up after only two hours of sleep with severe stomach pain with a medical issue I am dealing with and went in our office and sat down at my desk. Ming Ming one of my cats jumped up on my desk, went sliding then tried to land on my lap and missed and put out her claws to hang on the chair, she missed and two of her claws went in the head of my penis. I feel sad because I screamed and cussed her out and because a punctured bloody penis head hurts like hell. Ming is a 17 year old Siamese that I bottled fed when she was a kitten. Ming happily has forgiven me, I baked her a salmon filet and have been giving her extra love today.

Maybe there is a translation function ....? ^^

i m sad today cause mylover is far from me

Satt said:

i m sad today cause mylover is far from me

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That I will truly understand, because my BF very often is away because of a workshop. But I hope for you that he will be back soon. And the day of the reunion always will be heaven! Believe me I'll speak from experience!