That's why I could never do porn. I can't get it up for a guy that I'm not attracted to, or take a really big dick. I'm a top, but would bottom for guys because I wanted us both to have a good time, but personally never enjoyed it, but I have my limits. I got to the point where it didn't really hurt, with an average sized dick, but it's never been an erogenous area for me, despite that. I sometimes envied guys who like it so much, but realized that that would never be me, unless there was the occasional very good party drug that enhanced things for me, and that was rare. If anyone ever tried MDA, not MDMA, that was one of those. It was the closest thing to an aphrodisiac that I've ever had, but like all things, it didn't last. And it was very safe, but as good as it made you feel, it took a few days to fully recover from. I can't tell you how many guys I told that I loved, while taking it, but it was all the drug. A bit off the topic, but if you're going to do porn, unless you're running the show, you have to do things or have sex with others that you don't particularly like. I could never do that, even for money. I'm not judging, but it wasn't for me, personally. Plus, sex has always been more personal for me and I've never been an exhibitionist. There were a few outdoor activities, but they were in protected cove, or out of the way places and not a big danger of getting caught and were unplanned occurrences.
